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Today is just normal again. I dont know how to feel. I feel like Im normal now, like Im fully recovered from all the shit Ive done. I dont get sad anymore, just nostalgic or like Im missing something. Its crazy how I could be doing so much right now, Im just a lazy piece of shit though. I guess Im burnt out? I dont like using that word though. For now Im just scrolling through pinterest, thinking about whatever life I want in the future. Which is kinda stupid I guess. I keep saying to myself I wont live long, but to be honest I think I enjoy living. Or at least I enjoy the thought of having my own life one day. I fucking hate being inside my house all day, but the second Im bored of being outside, I say I want to go home. Where the hell is home? I guess I do like my house, I really do love it alot. But thats a house. Not a home. Id like to have my own house, or atleast a place that feels like me. Maybe thats what home is to me, just an embodiment of myself. I want to have posters, plants, music playing in the background in my home. Id really like that. I have some stuff in my room, but I dont really count that. Just stuff that interests me or reminds me of memories. I sound old, talking about memories. Im really not old. Im 14. I dont really understand why I feel so old all the time.